Right now, these picture are both a point of pride and a point of total embarrassment and pain. Backstory: I used to take thousands of pictures of people in band, and as a historian, that meant that I had to have at least one or two “good” pictures of people. Back near the end of Junior year in high school it was someone’s birthday and I had the brilliant idea of photoshopping a picture of them for their birthday.
What started as a little “gift” exploded into making photoshopped “birthday images” for basically everyone I had a good picture of, and wanted to give something a little more special than “Happy Birthday :D” on their FB wall, which was a lot of people. Over the course of the rest of my high school days I made around 95 of these “birthday images”, mainly for people in band. The inevitable downside of this was of course that my moral code (of “equality” for all. I’ll post about this soon hopefully) caused me to be making photoshopped birthday images almost every other day. And I felt so bad when I really couldn’t find a good picture to photoshop.
And of course, when college rolled around, I wanted to continue this practice. But it proved to be much more difficult than I had imagined. Birthday images for Band people was easy because I had 3 years of pictures to back me up. In college, I had just met these people. And while in band everyone would have to attend events and I had to take pictures, not so with college. I made a couple for some in Whis Wood but I was horribly inconsistent. And then the same with SPOP. One day I decided I had to start making birthday images for Staffers but after about four I got both lazy and couldn’t find good pictures (my camera sucks with room lights and i dont like using flash) for most people. It’s also weird making birthday images for band friends because I don’t have any recent photos. I know it’s my fault that this thing fell apart. If I give the right kind of effort maybe it can be revived.
I’m writing this because ever since I started making birthday images I effectively stopped writing Happy Birthday’s on people’s walls. In part because I had thought I would have time to make them a birthday image, but also in part because I still feel that a simple “Happy Birthday” isn’t enough. Which is stupid because for so many people I have basically neglected to give Happy Birthdays to in the past year and I feel like #$%@ because of that.
To conclude, if I haven’t written Happy Birthday on your wall, it’s not like I don’t love you or anything. To the contrary I really do love you, and wanted to do something “more” for you. But my own faults and mistakes prevented me from expressing my congratulations at your advancement in age. My sincere apologies and also my sincere wishes that you had or have a Wonderful Birthday!