June 2010
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Privileged
It really hit home this weekend just how damn privileged I am. I haven’t had any serious problems my entire life.
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My parents immigrated from China but they had gotten EE degrees in a well known Chinese university and are now both working in computer technology and we’re a upper-middle class family. I haven’t experienced any deaths in the immediate family, other...
Something Different
Some things have reminded me of something I realize that’s different about High School and College, in regards to what I do with my close friends. I warn you now that this post touches on the topic of alcohol, but only to elaborate on my main topic.
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In High School my close friends and I did these things called Meets. We’d hang out at someone’s...
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To Be Honest
To be honest, when I saw that Edge and Milo are getting to staff five SPOP’s, I felt a fast but strong wave of bitterness, because I’ve been assigned four SPOP’s. But in a minute or two I calmed down, and thought about it. I thought about how incredibly blessed and grateful I should, and am, for being able to staff even one single SPOP. There is so much to be thankful and happy...
Simple Wisdom from Ralph.
pocketfullofsusan:
mytea:
Spread the positivity.
“There are times when you need someone, I will be by your side. There is a light...”
– SPOP 2010 Coords (via hoonspoon)
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Weekend Debrief
A long rundown of what happend over the weekend, what I felt, and what I gained. My thoughts are scattered and sometimes I’m very detailed, sometimes vague. Just offloading everything I can.
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Weekend Training. The biggest hyped thing, ever since the first or second week of training. The day the color would be revealed. That’s all I thought about as...
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Fitting Lyrics
During Touch I sang under my breath songs that I felt represented my relationship with all the people around me. And I let my emotions run out in the songs and tears.
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Clocks - Coldplay
“Have brought me down upon my knees,
Oh, I beg I beg and plead
[…]
And nothing else compares
Home,...
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Light Year
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thyrannosaur:
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carlosl824:
SPOP 2010, I am SO proud of you! Glow in the Dark is definitely the best and most appropriate color for us! :) You have no idea how much I love every single one of you! Here’s to one amazing summer! Let your light shine, y’all!
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are...”
– Marianne Williamson (via carlosl824) (via alynonymous)
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Safe to Dance
One of the Glee episodes did a number on the song “Safety Dance” by Men Without Hats. I was shown that song by Ryan on a late start near the end of senior year. At the time it was just a fun, cool song. Now, after reading about it’s double meaning: Safety Dance sounds like Safe To Dance, it’s taken on a new significance for me.
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I love rocking out....
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It is with great pain that I post this site I just found, that turns out to be my 201st tumbl.
I am scared. I am so scared that this nation that I’ve been brought up in 15 years out of my 18 years of life, may be moving in such a direction. I am so scared that it is moving towards a culture that looks down on people of my culture. I am so scared that it is moving towards letting the...
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I don’t have time to write something important and I feel like I’m going to forget. So I’ll say it now. #200 POST OHHHHH YEAAAAAA
Session I Madness
This is how my summer schedule during Session I is going to work out, hopefully. First off, I’m from Irvine. One of our cars will not be in use but I don’t have insurance… yet? Also, no VDC Norte parking permit for sure. When I say drive it may be by myself or by my dad.
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Monday: Drive to internship (by Michelson and Harvard) at 8am, drive home at 5pm. Drive to VDC...
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Spotted!
At the Woodbridge Dollar Theatre I saw….
SPOP:
Crystal L, Mai Thi P, Carlos L, Kristine T, Tom C, Michael K, Jessica B, Mitchell F, Jason S, Carolyn B, Christian N, Brian G, Melyssa G, Alyssa V, Tammy H, and Tim P.
*I feel like I’m forgetting someone, who came in the first big group of people. I’m sorry if I forgot
UHS:
Roger WF, Andrew Z, Eugene L, Eric L, Brian K, and...
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(Please reply) I try to be neutral when meeting new people, so I’m open to learning about them first. But is it wrong to assume default, “normal”, “majority” things about people when I meet them? Can I assume in my mind only that if a person is in a relationship that it is with someone of the opposite sex? Can I assume in my mind only that a person’s parents are...
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the department store Robinsons-May? I was watching ‘Jackie Brown’, the 1997 Tarantino flick, and it’s shot within the backdrop of Del Amo mall and it had a Robinsons-May sign. That took me down memory lane (and kinda made me feel old). I started to think about all the companies that used to be…
wow i remember Robinsons-May. they went out of business already?? craaazy…
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Close
Oh the irony. So in my latest bid for some semblance of independence I decided to do June to June in VDC Norte. It makes sense for most of my independence needs, as I don’t have to deal with the parental every day for a whole year again, so I can do whatever and go wherever I want.
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One thing I didn’t see coming was that so many people would be finding summer housing in...
Different
In the morning I played a little Call of Duty Modern Warfare 2 on the computer. In one of the matches a guy on my team started a voice conversation with another guy on my team with the name “ShootinMexicans” or something like that.
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They discussed how they hated Mexican immigrants. The first guy explained he had taken 15 years to be some kind of building contractor in...
Further thoughts on alcohol
This post is more calm analysis of my feelings. I apologize for so many posts about this subject that I’d very much like to put behind me. But it’s a personal issue that is still unresolved and I want to throw it into an open space.
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I guess I can say I’m making progress, because I’ve identified two major obstacles in my hopefully future...
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ok i’m going to have to put a qualifier on a previous post. i know of one other group that has stuck together for so long it blows my mind. I forgot about them because I haven’t seen them in ages, but looking at the pictures they just posted warms my heart and brings back memories four years old. I’m talking about the Juniors when I was a Freshman in high school. They’ve...
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Beach Party
I love every event in Band. Band Camp, Competitions, Concerts, Galaxy Bowl, Banquet, Graduation. But there’s one tradition that has always been at the very end of the year. That’s the annual End of the Year Band Beach Party. The best way to end the year in band and welcome in the summertime. It’s always taken place on the last day of school/finals. I still remember helping plan...
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oh wow now i’m crying. i’m looking through a friend’s photos of himself and the wonderful people around him. no, with him. i think i’m crying because their friendship is the most beautiful i have ever seen in my entire life (18 years), but also that i don’t have such companions of the soul. i believe a friendship like theirs is so special, so rare and lucky. i wish...
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i should stop dreaming that i could ever mean that much to you. but i can still hope i can mean a lot to you.
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Every time I lose faith in my photography, from seeing how the people around me take such fantastic photos, from feeling like my own photos are inadequate, from people telling me they are annoyed by my candid photos, I look at my hundreds of facebook albums. I look at my flickr page with the very best of my 2008-2009 band photos. I look at my prom photos where I acted as personal photographer. Yea...
finding so many people’s blogs and tumblr’s. goodbye free time!
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“but right now is right now”
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Senior
I’ve been blessed that since Marching Band in high school I’ve participated in groups where there were a good number of Seniors. Even though I love Band and SPOP for transcending age differences, there’s still something fantastic, magical about getting to know Seniors. In Band, the seniors were the ones who always kept me believing in the program and believing in my peers. They...
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Leader
Today I attended my High School’s annual Band Banquet. The director chose to announce the next years Section Leaders and Drum Majors at the end of the banquet. Before the names would just be posted on the band room door in the morning.
The announcing brought back some raw memories, particularly because the only other visiting alumni was John, my senior year Low Brass section leader.
Long...
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Place
Halfway through the year I was going to tumbl about how easy it is for me to settle in a new place, a new environment. After today I am not going to tumbl that anymore because it would be wrong. Whispering Wood has surprised me so much, and even though I felt it just today, I feel like it’s been building the entire year. I’d really become attached to it. Something I didn’t think...
thyrannosaur:
Congrats class of 2010!!
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SPOP.
thyrannosaur:
“It’s hard to take courage, in a world full of people You can lose sight of it all and darkness still inside you make you feel so small But I see your true colors, SHINING through I see your true colors, and that’s why I love you So don’t be afraid to let them show your true colors True colors are beautiful, like a rainbow.”
<3
GMH
Warning: The hidden post is an angry, confused post. I’m having serious issues dealing with a certain matter and I am lashing out in a tumblr post. Read at your own discretion.
God Damn you, Alcohol. God Damn you. I hate you for invading my life like this. I haven’t so much seen you more than two times a year but all of a sudden you’re everywhere. I haven’t...
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Goals
I didn’t really set goals for myself for freshman year. If I did, I didn’t write it down, didn’t Tumbl it. I’m not really one to set concrete goals for myself, for better or for worse. Instead of “goals”, I set “plans”. Plans of what I’m going to do, not what I’m going to accomplish necessarily.
So many of the things that happened this...
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Last
This last Glee episode brought back some interesting memories.
I don’t know if I’ve tumbl’d about it. Regardless, here it is again. I love marching band, and it has been a place where I had really opened up and gained confidence. Ironically, particularly after my freshman year, when we got last place in all four of our competitions, out of some 3-4 bands in our 4A (< 120...
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Birdie
I found a little blue bird trapped in a corner of large glass windows, trying to fly against the glass. I figure it was a young bird because it didn’t freak out when I got close to it. I was able to actually touch it and nudge him or her towards an open area. It almost felt like he or she understood I was trying to help, and waited for me each time to nudge him or her closer to the open...
Quote of the Day: “finally found a new place to live, good bye ttrv and crappy parking and annoying school band”
I can only assume that since ttrv is right next to Uni, he’s talking about the Marching Band during the fall. Anyways I’d like to apologize on behalf of my band for being so loud every day after school, but we were just having too much fun and working too hard...
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Mac
To be honest, I don’t hate Mac’s, or Apple products, or Apple product consumers. But in my personal experience, “Mac People” have disproportionally adopted a “holier than thou” attitude about their Mac’s. Every time I pull out my HP laptop, which I hate with a passion because of its 20 minute battery life and poor construction, I can’t but feel...
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the way i am
passive-agressive [adj] ; being, marked by, or displaying behavior characterized by the expression of negative feelings, resentment, and aggression in an unassertive passive way
i’m the boy who stands there looking anywhere but there when getting yelled at. i’m the boy who shuts his mouth when other people open their’s. i’m the boy who’s words are trapped up inside his head, screaming...
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carlosl824:
I could’ve been somebody, you know? my mother says and sighs. She has lived in this city her whole life. She can speak two languages. She can sing an opera. She knows how to fix a T.V. But she doesn’t know which subway train to take to get downtown. I hold her hand very tight while we wait for the right train to arrive.
She used to draw when she had time. Now she draws with a...
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In other news, three-tumbl-rampage is not good for finals studying. Good day.
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Do Unto Others
“Do Unto Others What You would have Done upon Yourself”
This is one of my strongest life mantras. I like it because it cuts both ways. It means that I should not do mean things to others, because I would not want them to do mean things to me. At the same time I should do everything I can for others, because that is what I would like for them to do for me. It appears selfish, yes. But...
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Curses
I try to keep cuss words out of my everyday life for two reasons.
Here’s the story to the first. I was exposed to cuss words around the 6th grade. During that year, my best friend from before I moved to Irvine, who I hadn’t seen in nearly three years, came to visit. I wanted to be “cool”, so I let out the “cool” words I’d been hearing school. I realized...
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Concert of my Life
The new name of this Tumblr. Why?
Because a Concert has so many aspects to it. There’s moments of high energy, of transitions, of slow ballads, and more. It expresses so much in one single unit.
Because my life is not just about me, as much as some tell me it should be. Because I believe life is defined by how you interact with those around you and how you impact them. When you’re...
Name Change
Tumblr renamed to “Concert of my Life” to reflect my changing perspectives.
Hard
It’s hard loving or caring about people who can do things that frighten or disappoint you, or flat out don’t seem to want it.
But as long as they continue being a decent human being capable of good things, I will continue to love or care about them.
This
This building is supposed to be dry if you’re under 21. I’m going to forget about what I saw today. But if hear of it and see it again I am calling either the RA or straight to Duty-line. I don’t know if you’re actually consuming it. But I know the bottles are in there with you and you are knowingly bystanding to illegal possession. I am too, and God help me if I make the...
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Concert
Concert Band’s are a beautiful thing. More beautiful than orchestras, than rock bands, than singers, in my personal opinion. Why? Concert Band, taken symbolically, is the only musical unit (well maybe accept acapella) where so many different types of voices come together to make something beautiful. Trumpet, Clarinet, Flute, Saxophone, Piccolo, Tuba, Trombone, Baritone, Tenor Saxophone,...
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“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to...”
– SPOP 2010 (via carlosl824) (via mytea) (via hoonspoon) (via jumbojessica)
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What was not said
For those concerned, with a little elaboration. I wanted to say this but I felt like others put the main message in a better way.
“After hearing all these unfair, even cruel judgments you’ve experienced, I just want to rage at the world. I was and am still so angry. But I know that’s not the right thing to do because it won’t solve anything. I think it’s beautiful,...
